::another journey ahead. insyaAllah::

bismilahirrahmanirohim

i will be going to kelantan in these few couples day more.
so pray for my journey. 1 month insyaAllah. amin

::Meaningful::

 Assalamualaikum warahmatullah

Bismilahirahmanirahim...

Alhamdulillah. I’m back!

I am currently happily cheerfully officially celebrating my holiday for 2 weeks after finishing my 3^rd year. And Alhamdulillah. I am in my 4^th year.

I still vividly remember, when I was in my 1^st year in medical school, I always wanted to enter sort of Islamic education during weekend. 

I mean, things like Arabic language class and the rest. However, as the saying goes ‘practice what you preach’ , it blends well with my circumstances, oppositely!!!

When I was in 2^nd and 3^rd year, I was still not joining any Islamic teaching lesson. Busy with my study. Konon nyaaaaa

After being promoted to 4^th year, I’ve started to re-consider my dream. So, I took my first pace towards the meaningful journey to be in my life by looking for the suitable madrasah. I have several choices and ended up by choosing this madrasah. It’s not far. Just around this Kuching area. And I have to drive there every weekend. If only I am free. I’m trying to be compliance to attend the class every weekend but at the same time, I also have some usrah to attend as well.

You know what, since I decided to change when I was in matric until now, I think this kind of ‘penghijrahan’ has taught me a lot of things. I always wanted to encourage myself to make use my free time.I am not bragging things or praising myself, May Allah forgives me, but this is it. I am not denying and even admitting that I also spare sometimes to watch movies or variety shows, but, I guess I’ve become more motivated if I joined usrah and other good things like that.

Alhamdulillah, after meeting with ustaz and ustazah (my mua’lim and his wife), I was accepted to enter this madrasah and was permitted to join their lessons every weekend. The Ustaz told me that, I should join an Arabic language class first before learning the rest, for instance Fiqh and the rest because he’s teaching using Arabic version of books/kitab. So, I was agree since it is fun to learn Arabic language!!!

My first class:

my 1st class <3 font="">

It was really nerve-wrecking when I first stepped in the house of my mua’lim. Besides his house, there is small house connected to his house which become the hostel and classrooms for the students. The hostel ...ya...the madrasah also offering the parents who wanted to send their children there, stay there for months/years to learn after SPM. They are those who wanted to take STAM. 

 Isn’t this a good effort ? Absolutely. May Allah makes ease my mua’lim efforts to preach in Sarawak. Amin.

As I walking in, a muslimah, younger than me greeted me nicely. I told her that this is my first time being there. She explained to me everything about the schedule, the activities of the madrasah and many more. She is staying in  the hostel with the rest since couple of months ago and she can memorise and speak Arabic fluently. The hostel for the muslimin is at the another section of the house.

I was gathered with another first-timer classmate (basic Arabic class). Funny was, they were all primary school students.

 This is really a new chapter of my life. I sit and learn together with those cute kids and they really accept me and never degrade me... Initially, I was feeling so small being surrounded by them. (haha)...looking right and left....haha...

 But I never felt down learning together with them. Imagine, a 22-year old kakak tua sitting with a bunch of 10 years old kids.... haha...But I have to admit that, their brains are really superb to compare with mine .....haha...(they took only 5 minutes to memorise . Me??? 30 minutes.)

Seriously, an Arabic language is not easy to learn. Again, I have to re-set my intention. I’m learning for the sake of Allah. This is the language of Al Quran...

My 2^nd class :

My 2nd class <3 font="">

During my 2^nd class, I was taught about the ‘hand’...(err...hard for me to explain here. The pic tells everything)...

The 'hand'

I always laughing during the class because those kiddos were so funny. They tend to ask something that sounds funny to me... But my 2^nd class was a bit bored for me because I can’t laugh that loud because some new muslimin students who are about my age also joining the class. So, I was more silent than my 1^st class.

My 3^rd class:

Today is my 3^rd class. This morning. It went smoothly. And my mua’lim even greeted me with “Ahlan wasahlan” in front of another ustaz. I was nodded couple of times to respond....because this is my 3^rd class...don’t expect me to answer in Arabic!! Haha...

Today, the mua’lim(teacher) for today class was not my mua’lim. There was another ustaz taught us. And he told us 1 thing (maybe from hadith...) something sounds like this,

“Apa yang menyempurnakan wajib, adalah wajib”

 I am not intended to portray my story as a travelog version of mine. This is just a sharing. And also giving some ideas for you guys who have no ideas how to spend your weekend or your holiday....!

And pray for me to be istiqamah. When I was listening to IKIM FM, there was someone said that ‘Untuk istiqamah selalu, kita kena cari ilmu....”

So, as long as Allah gives you the breath to live, look for the knowledge especially knowledge for Islam and always upgrade your iman and improve. Be a better muslim and understand Islam....

  I’m not writing any episodes of my Arabic class story next time. Only this special version. Thank you.

Tabarallahuminna wa minkum. Assalamualaikum.... and wish me luck...

Hayya a'lal falah....

This is the instruments for qasidah

Some of the books in arabic

Part of the classroom

hey, found another kompang and rebana hidden....

::memories::

assalamualaikum warahmatullah.

it has ben quite sometimes since i dint make any entry
there were a lot of things came in my way that i didnt get to post any.

plus....im changing my phone and the internet line as well.
so there is some delay here  and there. and even i rarely able to online nowadays due to the
problems.

well....since i going to leave sibu soon.....i should write
something about sibu and the memories that would never be erased from my heart

but.....to be continued since i need to arrange the stuffs and come out with
the whole conclusive wonderful story.insyaAllah

may Allah bless our deeds.amin

::Save Palestine and Syria::

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah

nothing much to say here. as I am quite busy this few weeks.
but it's not wrong to spare sometimes to share something about save palestine and syria.

Everyone knows they are suffering right now. Do something guys!

we know that we are still in Malaysia.

We have no idea when the time come for us to jihad fi sabilillah together with our brothers and sisters there.

but that doesn't mean that we can sit still , doing nothing.

1. Pray for them with all your hearts to Allah SWT. Amin
2. Donate.

erasi dan pengurusan umum HALUAN

Nama Akaun: HALUAN
No Akaun: 14-023-01-000881-3
Bank: Bank Islam Malaysia Berhad

Bantuan kecemasan dan bencana

Nama Akaun: HALUAN
No Akaun: 14-023-01-002571-8
Bank: Bank Islam Malaysia Berhad

Sumbangan, bantuan atau tajaan anak-anak yatim dan fakir miskin

Nama Akaun: Tabung Amanah Asnaf HALUAN
No Akaun: 12-038-01-007164-2
Bank: Bank Islam Malaysia Berhad

Tabung Palestin

Bantuan dan sumbangan khusus untuk projek kesedaran dan bantuan mangsa kekejaman rejim haram Zionis di Palestin:
Nama Akaun: Tabung Palestin HALUAN
No Akaun - BIMB: 14-023-01-003429-2
No Akaun - Maybank: 5644 9020 8528

3. Boycott
4. Make an intention that 1 day, you will go there and do your jihad fisabilillah.

I couldn't be boasting about my future career if I am not the one who can help and treat them with my own bare hands.


wallhuallam.

::Finding the best way to get closer to Him::

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah...

Allahumma ssolli A'la saiyidina Muhammad wa a'la aali Muhammad.

Today, I think I can't stand any longer the pressure.

Yes. The pressure

Pressure of being an ignorance Muslim.

I can't stand it.

I always feel that I am not doing the right thing

always bounded by something

My relationship with Allah?

Trying hard to cling to Him eventhough I know it by myself I am slowly slowing down my pace.

Isn't that suppose not to happen?

But I don't know why. sadly said!

Astaghfiruullah ...

Do you ever feel like...

"am I doing a right thing?"
"why can't I be khusyuk in my solat?"
"why this tears doesn't come out ....?"
"My heart getting 'cold!'"
"O, I am hopeless muslim!"


I think I done so many sins regardless minor or major sins, but I must have done something wrong.

I have wronged Allah in many ways that I myself perhaps did not realised it.

Please forgive me, O Allah for my wrongdoings.

Please forgive me.

I'll try my best to be more alert in anything that I do. InsyaAllah....

Guys out there, no matter how much sins that we might have done to Allah, don't forget to hurry realise the things and hurry get yourself  back to Him, remember Him, and trust Him.

Let's pray for the best of Ummah. amin.

::Writing from my heart::

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah

Hi everyone there.! May Allah bless your day and place us all in His Jannah. Amin

Today. no. actually it has been a week since I started to feel something grow deep down inside my heart.

To you guys reading this, for your information , I have 4 nephews, 1 had just passed away few years ago, he was still a small baby at that time. and the rest 3 are all naughty!

In other people opinion, they might regard me as quite a loud-cute aunty..(nak jugak letak cute!). I not a type of auntie who pamper my nephews like kissing and hugging them all the time. because I am just not among the type. I am more to like 

"eh eh...jangan main luarrrrrr......."
"habiskannnn nasikkk tuuuuuuu...."
"jangan gadoh gadoh..."(sambil tangan pegang hanger)

sometimes, I do admit the fact that I really want to sayang-sayang with them. soemtimes, I managed. sometimes quite so-so...and I am trying until now. to be more gentle to them. 

and this 1 week, I am currently doing my paediatric posting. and for sure, starting my everyday life looking those innocent faces. the different between them and my nephews is they are sick. 1 of my nephew actually having this kind of asthma. but it should be ok up to now. InsyaAllah

you know, I never entertain or play like crazy with kids other than my nephews and my little brother(when he was so small back then). 

that was my world and story with kids. but now, Allah gives me these bulk of kids to be entertained. and they are all so pure and innocent...

AND YOU KNOW WHAT...

I just realised how innocent and pure my nephews are. same go with these kids in the ward...How I miss my nephews...! 

AND SURPRISINGLY...

I started to grow fond on them. admiring them. smiling and laughing alone by watching their actions. so innocent, NO SINS at all, very pure, and the list goes on........ 

and realising that how sincere I am writing about them now :)  

and realising that Allah create us, as a women, by nature, will change according to the surroundings, become more mature, more motherly and become more stronger in facing this very difficult life. Alhamdulillah....Thank you Allah for all the gives. Thank you Allah!

These are the faces that make me smile everyday....

I met him at surau at my college <3 td="td">

My first patient in Paeds ward.. Ekmal Akhbar 4 y/o

His bed was next to Ekmal. 

Picture was taken when I was in O&G posting

Picture taken when I was doing my O&G

Last but not least, one of my bodyguard(my nephew)...Amsyar.

so I guess, I need to be more postive and more sincere since I have to face these sincere faces everyday... 

InsyaAllah.....and also reflecting myself....as a servant of Allah....because I was like these kids also 21 years ago. 

Seperti mana hadis Rasulullah saw,” anak itu ibarat seperti kain putih,ibu bapalah yang akan mencorakkannya menjadi nasrani, yahudi ataupun majusi”

May you guys become good servants of Allah! amin...

p/s : 

to one of my friend in this blogger world, may you live a good life...towards the best life as a muslim.

life and tests from Allah is like a twin. As long as you live and breath, you will be tested by Allah. 

The tests might come from your friends, parents, family, finance, and importantly yourself. 

 If you are trying to run from the problems or tests, then you are good for nothing. 

 Try to adapt yourself to the situation, no matter how hard it is

 InsyaAllah, you will be fine.  

Plus,you have been good to me although we are just knowing each other in  this so called fantasy world. 

and I know you encountered many problems with the people around you.  as I just know you by reading your blog,and the things that you wrote in your blog is just a small part of your problems, isn't ?

I can't simply ask you the rest of your problems that you might keep it within yourself, but try to console yourself. Allah know everything in your heart. You are nowhere to hide. 

I do have my own problems too. and the things that I wrote in my blog is just 20 % of my life. I did not write all of them because I regard them as my very own private secrets to Allah. Allah knows how deadly I am consoling myself to face them all. That is life. . 

anyway, I am still your Kak Sath (as you are the only one name me Kak Sath)

You know I am also trying my deadly best to become a good muslim. and I wish you the same too. 

be good to people, and let them be if they are treating us badly. Leave it to Allah. 

I guess, that's all from me. ya.. today's post quite sincere...

And lastly, don't forget to pray for our brothers and sisters in Syria, Palestine, Myanmar and others. amin.

::2012 Aidiladha::

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah

Alhamdulillah..terima kasih Allah ..bagi lagi aku peluang hidup. Alhamdulillah.
Salam dan selawat ke atas junjungan Rasulullah, ahlul bait, sahabat2 baginda
muslimin muslimat mukminin mukminat seluruh dunia

"Allahuakbar Allahuakbar ...."

takbir raya bergema. walaupun bukan lah raya aidilfitri, cuma aidiladha tapi tidak kurang penting dalam hidup umat islam.

Sesungguhnya Kami (Allah) telah memberi engkau (ya Muhammad) akan kebajikan yang banyak. Oleh itu dirikanlah solat kerana Tuhanmu ( pada Hari Raya Haji) dan sembelihlah (binatang) korbanmu (sebagai ibadah dan mensyukuri nikmat Tuhanmu).” (Surah al-Kauthar : ayat 1-2)

walaupun takde baju raya untuk aidil adha (eh...ade ke org buat?)

tapi ibrah sempena hari mulia ni banyak yg kita ambik.

ingat tak kisah Nabi Ibrahim A.S? dan anaknya dan isterinya???

I know you know.......ahaaaaa (Oh My English!)

taaaaappiiiii

jom la kita ingat balik kisah tersebut. entah mana aku baca hari tu....
kisah pasal Nabi Ibrahim...mungkin dari blog bro Hilal kalau tak silap.

terkenang aku betapa tabahnya seorang...bukan seorang...tapi satu keluarga Nabi Ibrahim...tengok kisah Siti Hajar carik air untuk anaknya Nabi Ismail? sungguh menakjubkan .

satu, tengok betapa tabahnya , sabarnya seorang yang bergelar kaum hawa taat kepada perintah Allah tanpa 'compromise' (maaf...tak ingat apa perkataan sesuai dalam bm...'mengeluh' ke?)

kedua, tengok kaum isteri sabar taat dengan suami dan sokong Nabi Ibrahim....kalau tengok drama melayu sekarang...fuhhh....suara isteri2...terkedu aku...itu baru drama..belum yang betul-betul....nauzubillah min zalik

dan banyak lagi yang kita dapat ambik iktibar ...dan teruskan jadi hamba Allah yang terbaik yang termampu kita lakukan....AYUH!!!!

tetiba semangat......

dan tengok mak aku masak...semnagat betul nak sambut aidiladha...jadi tersenyum sendiri dengan kesemangatan dia....

ape pun JOM JADI HAMBA ALLAH YANG CANTIK DI HADAPAN ALLAH...JOM!

p/s: maaf kali ni guna 'aku' ..rasa macam best pulak...... (jakun.....!maklumlah...sarawak guna kamek kitak...aku dengan kawan2 tak guna aku kau melainkan dengan budak laki...)

p/s:aku tengah cuba nak masukkan balik lagu yang aku minat kat blog. (wink* wink*)... tengok lah berhasil tak hasil yang aku cuba nih.....

P/s : doakan journey Dr. J...(entry yang aku dah hapuskan dari sini....)

p/s: nah..baca la entry terbaru Tok Guru Nik Aziz yang terbaru nih..... ::SINI...SILA BACA!!::



Jangan lupa korang ...Doa untuk saudara2 kita yang kat Syria, Burma, Palestin, Mesir, dan semua muslim yang ada kat dunia nih... amin!

wallahuallam