tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-74060240094504904932023-11-16T02:58:59.249-08:00::Somewhere Along The Highway::Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.comBlogger67125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-82264597183398424342016-06-09T09:03:00.000-07:002016-06-09T09:03:04.835-07:00:: being harsh ::Assalamualaikum<br />
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I can feel the tremor whenever i open up my blog. I have no idea though.<br />
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Happy ramadhan everyone. Alhamdulillah... i am going to start my next posting very soon. Life goes on as usual, as Allah's willing.<br />
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I got story to share though.<br />
I'd encountered situation that to me was simple, but i really need to tell here.<br />
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One of my friend, which is a guy, he told me, not to be too harsh with guys. I startled and paused. Did I? All these while?<br />
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Then i realised there was one incident whereby my friend was telling me something randomly, and i was like.. what... then? Why would u even tell me.. unnecessary isnt. Then he pressed his forehead like very stressful gesture. Ohh. Did i just being harsh.. wasnt I?<br />
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From where and when i started ... i didnt realised. At all. For why i reacted all the way like that... i have no idea too.<br />
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And one of my friend talked down to me. He told me, why dont you get married? And so randomly like that.<br />
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Omg. Im not being picky. Im not. Not not... but i have right to choose. Because whoever i am going to choose, will stay with me, will be my bestest friend and i dont choose a random mate. To hold that title. My bestest friend yg halal.<br />
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I am 25 yo this year. For how long Allah gonna borrow this dunya to me, i dunno too. But for what i am very sure, Allah will send someone who will compliment my life, my absolute characters, and every single lacking that i have. InsyaAllah.<br />
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Pray to Allah for that. Amiin :'(<br />
<br />Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-31446969484895735852016-02-10T08:00:00.001-08:002016-02-10T08:00:20.681-08:00life as it isAssalamualaikum<br />
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phew. it has been a while since i last blogging. <br />
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omg. too many things happen in my life...<br />
it just beyond my control<br />
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i want to cry, but but but<br />
no tears come out... yeayyyyyy<br />
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it gets dried. hahahahhaa<br />
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alhamdulillah. Allah makes me a stronger person because of useless event.<br />
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i just dont want to look behind again. no more sadness.. <br />
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life must go on. fightingggg.. insyaAllah. šSomewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-22947513815431576312015-12-13T03:46:00.000-08:002015-12-13T03:46:00.191-08:00endless sadnessit has been a while not writing anything. i have one story. to tell . honestly, I dont and never ever understand a man. will never. giving promises like no day tomorrow, but once you got her, you simply treat her like a trash. nah. you didnt feel that . like pointing all her flaws in details. no. you cant do that. though you are a damn honest person, you seriously cant do that. everything you said or regurg out will not going to the air, it will go to her heart. betullah, the words really can tear the heart.<br />
when she almost giving her heart, you simply crush her heart like nothing . like she will stay forever.<br />
i was scared saying those final words to you. but i was determined. though it was a while, it was still a nightmare for me. being treated in such a way, my mistakes were clearly stated without mercy and concern, while im keeping my patience all this while. at last, i choose to leave when at first, i keep saying to stay. with all the injustice judgement, i choose to leave. not because of hatred, but i was too scared and traumatised. what will happen to my life after this? single forever? only Allah knows. but for sure, im in deep phase of hibernating. not going to open my heart to anyone. not this time. šššššSomewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-87309783194638318762015-08-07T16:25:00.001-07:002015-08-07T22:41:05.391-07:00:: wishlists ::Assalamualaikum
How you doing? Good? Alhamdulillah
I got another chance given by Allah to update my dusty kinda blog. Hihihi
After I finished my medical school, my life goes on like usual. I mean, not really like usual, whereby I dont need to flip over my bloody medical books anymore!!! Thats something to celebrate guys. Alhamdulillah.<br />
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my daily activities has changed completely.
for the time being, I am more towards mommy mommy routine except for doing laundry because my mom would not let me do that cause thats her forte for 30 years! Hooray
Basically, I would help her cooking. Thats my forte guys... herherher. Sometimes I do bake things. Thats my all time interest! I love baking that I think I really want to own a bakery! In the future? Perhaps<br />
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For these few months, a lot of things happened. Personally, I think thats a normal process of a human being. Stages of life. Herherherher<br />
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Im not going to talk about that anyway. Because my post today would be something about my dreams. Something that I wish to do and even after I become a wife 1 day, insyaAllah, hopefully my future husband would allow me to do them.<br />
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1. Perform an umrah/hajj<br />
I guess, its not just my dream. Its everyone dreams. Right??? I wish I could go there in my young age. Of course, those chosen by Allah to be His honourable guests in that holy land are lucky! Currently, I have to make sure my account is bertingkek tingkek. InsyaAllah... of course I would count my parents in. May Allah ease my intention. Amin<br />
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2. Be a wife<br />
I can't denied how lucky is the person getting that title. A wife to si polan bin polan. I mean, hey, thats your ticket to jannah if you are doing a great duty as a wife! Sapa taknakkk? I am 24yo. I think in my previous previous post, when i was in year 3, i wrote something about my target age to get married. Its 21yo, 23yo, 25yo and 28yo. Hahahaha... so childish.. now, I think it can be at any age as it has already written in luh mahfuz kan? So, to the garbage those childish targets. Hahahahaa...<br />
to be a wife, you need to learn a lot of things. Housechores, akhlak as a wife, akhlak as a menantu, akhlak to both my parents and bla bla bla... it is endless. I hope my future husband would understand me. My childish act, my clumsiness, my weird behaviour sometimes, my tiredness, my expresions, my sifat penakut, I can't sleep alone in a room, because i cant stand mistik2 things... thats why i dont prefer ghost stories or movies. My eating behavior, my blunt and blur nature and all. Its okay. I would brief my future husband more details after we get married.<br />
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3. Backpacking travels<br />
I wish after i perform umrah or hajj, i wish to go for backpakcing. I dont prefer beach or ocean cause it scares me. Sunburn summore. Ergh..my dream destination is somewhere that has mountain like padang indonesia? One of them. Owh... turki also included. Sapa taknak g turki? Loser.<br />
Why I choose backpacking style? Jimat la of course. A cheapskate like me would do everything to save money. Sometimes, boros jugekkkk...<br />
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4. Be a novelist<br />
Actually, I love writing! Hehehehe... of course I love talking too.<br />
My journey and dream to be a novelist is not easy. I step on abundant thorns along the journey. Sobsobsob. I start writing and working on 1 novel since matrik I think. And it is in my laptop like if I got ideas, I would add in stuffs in my novel. It actually lasted until my medical school like until year 4 before the tragedy happened. Sobsobsob...<br />
my novelllll... *slapslap<br />
Actually i wrote almost 100++ pages. You know, from a nasty nasty novel and I add in islamic touch.... and it towards the end guys. ...when my younger brother formated my laptop because of virus hatch in it. Gosh! I hate virusssses... and a dumb like me only did backup on my medical notes. But I just realised that I didnt backup my novel. And it just burn like that. Cruel viruses featuring a stupid me. I was at a total loss at that time. Its okay. I hope my future husband will get that file back. I know its impossibleeeee!!! Why must be my future husband? Because my novel is my top secret until it is being published. But now, all of my years writing that bloody novel is in vain. Sia sia. So, i dont think I can write again. Sedih right?<br />
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5. Fix my old smartphone<br />
I am using asus right now. But i miss my old samsung galaxy. All my photos since 3rd year in there. After I left my medical school, i put it inside a box... hopefully i dint misplace it. Wait ya samsung... I will be looking for you.<br />
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6. Gardening<br />
Ngeeeee... i got a new interest. Yet to be practiced. Hihihi.. I watched majalah 3 and there was 1 slot about gardening. A husband and wife both doing that activity... wow... so interestingggg... they plant vegies and I myself would like to plant too... insyaAllah...<br />
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* I think thats all for the time being. Will add on later on in the same post. I am sleepy. Eh tetiba... really... maybe because of that novel. Ergh.<br />
* i found my blogging activity becomes easy peasy as i can just update my blog using my smartphone.<br />
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Dan Allah lah yang menjadikan kita tertawa and menangis.<br />
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<br />Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-28825711684286150022015-05-25T06:43:00.001-07:002015-05-25T06:43:35.099-07:00:: bye bye, medical school! ::<b>Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarokatuh</b>
hi, how are you doing? :)
Alhamdulillah, I've gotten myself some precious time actually, to update my blog.
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to whom it may concern (kekeke), alhamdulillah, with the help from Allah SWT, I passed my final professional examination. the result was endorsed on 9th May 2015 (around 3 weeks ago). Alhamdulillah tsumma Alhamdulillah.
5 years stuffing my brain with a lot of medical stuffs, lemme take some break after final exam before I am called for work. so, I am officially penganggur sementara for the time being. hopefully, it would not take long time to call my friends and I for housemanship. you know, things inside this brain can sometimes become rusted, though brain is not a metal (lame joke, ezah!) haha
let me tell you what I got during my exam. I was given patient with gastric carcinoma (kanser perut). I was given 1 hour (sharp, really), to ask the patient and at the end come out with my diagnosis. and after 1 hour, there were 3 examiners (one from private hospital, one from UNIMAS and another one was ... I can't remember his name and from which hospital he is working, but he is a physician.) .
so, these 3 examiners listened to my history regarding the patient.
hihi. I was so nervous that I think my hands were trembling and cold as ice! really.
'this is it! this is the final. and you are going to be a doctor after this. insyaAllah" Thats what I told myself before I met the patient.
that patient seriously very cooperative patient! Alhamdulillah.
just a short recap about my exam that day.
now, I am waiting for the call from the ministry of health. faster cause I wanna work! insyaAllah.
I will be a good doctor to my patients, improve my patience, sharpen my knowledge and clinical skills. insyaAllah biiznillah. amin
'dan berbuat baiklah (kepada orang lain) sebagaimana Allah SWT telah berbuat baik kepadamu, dan janganlah kamu berbuat kerosakan di muka bumi. Sesungguhnya Allah SWT tidak menyukai orang2 yang berbuat kerosakan' (Al Qashas 28: 77)
Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-25951919027937058882014-12-21T02:43:00.000-08:002014-12-21T02:43:00.251-08:00:: My Sadness::<div google-feedback-id="5">
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My blog headlines nowadays are really no joke ha. haha. more dramatic I guess. heheh. alright. Let me tell you a story. of course about the author of this blog la. its ME! tadaa... this is my blog. so I gonna tell a story about myself. not too deep and not too surface. Hopefully. When I go stand beside you or sit down beside you or suddenly confront you on your face, telling you that " I am sad. " , thats mean I really really meant it though I might giggling in front of you seems like I am joking around. you know I am not.
To be honest, I am very seriously terribly expressive person. I will express it when I am sad or angry or happy. I am very bad at hiding things inside my heart. I still remember when I was in my secondary school, unknowingly, my eyebrows would went downwards when I was upset on something. and one of my classmate noticed it and he could simply tell me that I was angry at that time. and I just wondered how he easily detected it? or maybe I was unaware about that eyebrows? yup. my expression would never become a secret.
how I wish I could hide a bit, and calmly smile infront of other people. I wish... sobsobsob I pray to Allah to make me to be more sabar person in life. for every tests Allah is testing me, I just want to face it with my sabar power. amin. ;'(
I think I did mention in my last post that I am such a tearful person in real. Thats a real thing about me. I would just cry my heart out whenever I face something that I don't keen to face. I am so envy to those who really can keep their tears up. I wish my tear gland to be more strong rather than too fragile.
now, a lot of things happened that really hit my tear gland at very high power. with a very no joke speed. But most of the time, I would cry infront of my closest friends.
I am sad when I could not see my mother when she is just around me due to my bloody busy schedule. She would call me every night. almost every night to ask about my day. and the sad thing was that I could only answered her with simple words cause I was too exhausted. It really break my heart cause I could not kacau her with jokes or what. *teary* . somehow, I think my mother is the best at handling my emotion and she understand me the most. and yesterday before she really went back home after seeing me, I really hug her tightly. I could not utter anymore words to explain her how busy I was these few days and could not see you, can't even sit together with you for dinner or what. I wanted to cry but I really hold my tears. I dont want to show her my tiredness or my hardship. I reallly love you mak :'(
I am sad when my friend who used to joke around me, brought me anywhere I want whenever I felt hungry, turned out to be a friend who simply dislike me in whatever manners I act upon. I am sad. I don't want things to simply filled with hatred. why you choose to hate me? why you choose to make me sad? why you choose to do that when last time you were the one that consoled me whenever I felt sad? why? I wish I am strong enough to face you and talk like usual. but I think I am more than weak to do that. I am weak and fear to face you. your expression could simply tell how much you dislike me. how you think I can simply talk to you leisurely? to be honest, I think my heart really going to burst out if I remember the things that you wrote. it was so harsh. your words, your actions... it really break my heart. deep inside my dirty heart, I pray to Allah that He is going to erase those harsh words from my heart and mind. and make us become close again. whatever it is, I would always love and care about you. wherever you are. please forgive me.
I am sad when a guy simply approached me without any clear reason. and when I told you that I don't want to simply randomly contact with any guys. I need to take care of my maruah, my dignity. I am someone future wife or if thats not happening, I am for sure a future ahli kubur. when I tried to express my way of thinking, you simply assumed that I was too demand. you know how frustrated and sad to hear that? you know? I'm very blunt and naive person, I would sound really strict if I think something has gone beyond Islamic rule. I fear Allah would displease with that. I am telling you, I am a future wife, and I want to be true only to my future husband. So, it is fair for my future husband if I don't contact any guys randomly. if you try to ask me solution for that, how and how... I don't know the exact way but from what I learnt, do it in a right way. You could simply see me as a humour person and easy going person in real life. yes I am. but I am really never an easy person that you can simply hitch.
too many sadness and I suddenly running out of ideas to write. owh. those bloody ants ambushing my breads! huh. how annoying. haha. but its okay, to those ants, you can eat my food, I won't kill you. but you know you are so annoying, semut semut!. I think I have to stop. half of my burden actually gone because I am writing here. you could see how blogging helps you with your problems right? but don't forget that Allah is The most Listening. tell Him everything. so I am telling you half of my sadness and tell Allah everything. hihi
<b>Kita bertanya: Kenapa aku diuji? Quran menjawab, "Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan."Kami telah beriman, sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang-orang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar, dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang berdusta." (Surah al-Ankabut: 2-3) </b>kindest regards. xoxo Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-63700499834083104752014-11-20T21:29:00.002-08:002014-11-20T21:29:41.020-08:00:: What has written::Bismilahirahmanirahim. Assalamualaikum<br />
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I have no idea why I have this kind of mushy mushy mood these few days.<br />
Hormonal imbalance perhaps? or maybe Iman Imbalance? Dangggg... Hit me right on my nose!<br />
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Oh before I start, I want to express my syukur to Allah SWT , because of His Merciful, I passed my Orthopaedics exam! :') Yesterday, or a week before the result out, I was praying hard to Allah, keep my heart at ease and peace though I failed in my short case :'( to give me strength to continue my next posting. Anything can happen right? I might fail my ortho and I dont even confident whether I did well in my long case even. BUT BUT.... Allah is The Greatest. Alhamdulillah. Subhanallah. He is The Most Merciful towards His creations. I passed my exam at last. Alhamdulillah.... May He gives me strength to do well in my current posting and the same goes to my friends too. InsyaAllah. :')<br />
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Alright. These few days I've been thinking to update my blog. About "what has written".<br />
I attended my friend's wedding and in just few days, my cousin pulak going to have her wedding.<br />
Barakallah. SO you know right why I am writing this? with my mushy mushy mood. heheh.<br />
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when people talk about wedding or meeting someone for real, I am so freak to have such an extensive and excessive talk about that. WHY? because I am afraid. Is there really a person that willing to spend life with me? in future? or near future?<br />
I told myself, InsyaAllah there is, because our jodoh already written in Luh Mahfuz. No doubt about that. It just a matter of time.<br />
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Marriage is definitely one of the many many many many goals in one's life. Don't bluff of saying that you do not intended to meet someone one day...<br />
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It takes abundant times, and prays to choose, what more to those who terribly picky in searching.<br />
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To me, a soul partner till jannah aka partner in crime (heheh) is someone that seriously accepting you in whatever ways you bring yourself inside and out.<br />
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You do the math. How many guys out there that only searching for partners with good looks? good materials? good bods? (read: bodies). 99.9%! I dare you to cut my fingers if they aren't!<br />
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Where is the 0.01% guys huh? I wish. hurm.<br />
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A guy who accept you physically and your characters,<br />
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Physically, a guy who accept,<br />
1. flaws on your face. a girl with the most acne counts on earth<br />
2. a girl with the lowest nasal bridge on planet<br />
3. a girl who has ugliest eyes<br />
4. a girl with thickest darkest eyebrows<br />
5. a girl with noodle like hair or sparse hair<br />
6. a girl who has widest diameter of legs circumference or girl with freaking chopstick like legs<br />
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what the fishhhhhh.... Is there any guys out there that don't mind about that? only looking at heart? hard to say huh?<br />
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Prophet Muhammad counted in 0.01 % man. The dream guy ever.<br />
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In term of your character, he who willing to accept....<br />
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1. a girl who is slow brainer. haha. her math is waaaayyyyyyyy rusted. haha. She needs her phone calculator when she just need to calculate less than rm10.00 money. pity her.<br />
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2. she is too clumsy. gosh. she is always giggling and clumsy. she walks clumsily, she talks clumsily. she tries to contol her clumsiness and it seems like she is going to become cyanosed if she keeps her clumsiness inside her head.<br />
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3. she is messy. messy enough. with her laundry, and unfolded clothes. she tries to tidy her table, and 5 mintues after that, everything become so messy again. maybe her books having any hidden legssss????<br />
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4. She is too excited and loud. you barely see her uvula when she laughs (metaphore). that means, she is too loud, talks noisily. Only when she develops ulcers on her tongue then she laughs politely. sadisnya.<br />
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5. she is extremely naive. you tell her any false stories, she would believe you to death. haha. she cannot accept if you scold her or being angry of her for ridiculous reasons.<br />
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6. she doesn't know how to express her love in proper way. She could give you a gift, or say she loves you, but her face turned pink and cyanosed sometimes. heheh. too embarassing for her.<br />
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7. She doesn't know how to express her temper in a better way or positive way. she either scold you right away, cry her heart out or if she keeps silent, that even dangerous. hurmmm.<br />
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8. and her tearssss... omg. she is such a tearful person ever. you might think she is too sensitive or too emotional. she would cry if people dislike her for some reasons, she would cry if her cats die and many more reasons to cry. haha. she feels stronger if she cries. <br />
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9. she is very firm with her decision that you might think she is tooooooooo stubborn. be mindful.... she is firm, not a stubborn person. if you tell her good reasons, she will easily give in to you.<br />
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Lastly, I read somewhere. it says " you don't see things as it is."<br />
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if she is a clumsy person, you take it as a bonus. for you. this type of soulmate needs really good care. when you go out with her, no matter how many children you have in future, please please and please you still need to hold her hand when you want to cross the road cause she just simply dash away leaving you behind to the opposite road cause she is too nervous. bahaya2x.... stand with her at the counter when she is paying money cause she would just simply take the money without counting first and walk away forgetting all her plastic bags with the things that she just bought. Teroknyaaaa....<br />
she doesn't know how to read the clock with 24-hour system. she takes sometimes to analyse it. told ya, her math is simply lousy.<br />
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if she is a messy wife, you sit down and do some soft talk with her. what you can tolerate and what you cannot tolerate with. Told ya, she is naive. If you being frank with her, don't simpan2... she will accept it and try to improve. if she doesn't even bother to iron your baju kerja, thats too much lah kan. if she is more to kitchen thingy, why can't you even move your pseudo paralyse hands and help her to kemas2 the living room ka.... easy kan....<br />
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if she is too loud... it is a modifiable factor lah. if day 1 live together, you jaw would drops seeing her uvula for real when she laughs, without even need a tongue depressor, you tell her to change from day to day in a good and sweet manner. Don't simply shout and pull out her uvula. Ohhhhh thats my cruel and cartoon(ist) imagination only. !she would change. to be a better person and wife.<br />
if you enjoy to hear her laugh, you tell her please laugh like that only in front of me cause I kinda jealous if other guys enjoy your laugh. she will control that. InsyaAllah.<br />
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if you want to write about weaknesses that one's has, it is endless....<br />
you could not change that in 1 day, you accept<br />
and if there is things to change, do it slowly. don't force.<br />
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is there any guy that could accept you as you are?? Ah... I feel like going for a good travel (perform Umrah ke...) to calm myself down... too much weaknesses of me. hmm.<br />
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May Allah eases our jodoh . amin.<br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #6aa84f;">"Say: whether you hide what is in your hearts or manifest it, Allah knows it, He knows whatever is in the heaven and whatever is in the earth, and Allah has power over all things " (Surah Ali Imraan:29) </span></span></span><br />
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<br />Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-25684089860740144512014-02-22T08:14:00.000-08:002014-02-22T08:14:05.963-08:00::another journey ahead. insyaAllah::bismilahirrahmanirohim<br />
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i will be going to kelantan in these few couples day more.<br />
so pray for my journey. 1 month insyaAllah. aminSomewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-22124488851886697442013-04-21T00:57:00.000-07:002013-04-21T00:57:00.875-07:00::Meaningful::<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I mean, things like Arabic language class and the rest. However, as the saying goes āpractice what you preachā , it </span><s><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">blends well</span></b></s><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> with my circumstances, oppositely!!!</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Alhamdulillah, after meeting with ustaz and ustazah (my muaālim and his wife), I was accepted to enter this madrasah and was permitted to join their lessons every weekend. The Ustaz told me that, I should join an Arabic language class first before learning the rest, for instance Fiqh and the rest because heās teaching using Arabic version of books/kitab. So, I was agree since it is fun to learn Arabic language!!!</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">It was really nerve-wrecking when I first stepped in the house of my muaālim. Besides his house, there is small house connected to his house which become the hostel and classrooms for the students. The hostel ...ya...the madrasah also offering the parents who wanted to send their children there, stay there for months/years to learn after SPM. They are those who wanted to take STAM. </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> Isnāt this a good effort ? Absolutely. May Allah makes ease my muaālim efforts to preach in Sarawak. Amin.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">As I walking in, a muslimah, younger than me greeted me nicely. I told her that this is my first time being there. She explained to me everything about the schedule, the activities of the madrasah and many more. She is staying in</span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">the hostel with the rest since couple of months ago and she can memorise and speak Arabic fluently. The hostel for the muslimin is at the another section of the house.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I was gathered with another first-timer classmate (basic Arabic class). Funny was,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> they were all primary school students</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> This is really a new chapter of my life. I sit and learn together with those cute kids and they really accept me and never degrade me... Initially, I was feeling so small being surrounded by them. (haha)...looking right and left....haha...</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> But I never felt down learning together with them. Imagine, a 22-year old kakak tua sitting with a bunch of 10 years old kids.... haha...But I have to admit that, their brains are really superb to compare with mine .....haha...(they took only 5 minutes to memorise . Me??? 30 minutes.)</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Seriously, an Arabic language is not easy to learn. Again, I have to re-set my intention. Iām learning for the sake of Allah. This is the language of Al Quran...</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I always laughing during the class because those kiddos were so funny. They tend to ask something that sounds funny to me... But my 2</span><sup><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">nd</span></sup><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> class was a bit bored for me because I canāt laugh that loud because some new muslimin students who are about my age also joining the class. So, I was more silent than my 1</span><sup><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">st</span></sup><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> class.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Today is my 3</span><sup><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">rd</span></sup><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> class. This morning. It went smoothly. And my muaālim even greeted me with āAhlan wasahlanā in front of another ustaz. I was nodded couple of times to respond....because this is my 3</span><sup><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">rd</span></sup><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> class...donāt expect me to answer in Arabic!! Haha...</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Today, the muaālim(teacher) for today class was not my muaālim. There was another ustaz taught us. And he told us 1 thing (maybe from hadith...) something sounds like this,</span></div>
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<span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I am not intended to portray my story as a travelog version of mine. This is just a sharing. And also giving some ideas for you guys who have no ideas how to spend your weekend or your holiday....!</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">And pray for me to be istiqamah. When I was listening to IKIM FM, there was someone said that </span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">āUntuk istiqamah selalu, kita kena cari ilmu....ā</span></span></b></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">So, as long as Allah gives you the breath to live, look for the knowledge especially knowledge for Islam and always upgrade your iman and improve. Be a better muslim and understand Islam....</span></div>
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<span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> </span></span><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Iām not writing any episodes of my Arabic class story next time. Only this special version. Thank you.</span></div>
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Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-63979810540856387292013-02-10T04:24:00.002-08:002013-02-10T04:24:52.100-08:00::memories::assalamualaikum warahmatullah.<br />
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it has ben quite sometimes since i dint make any entry<br />
there were a lot of things came in my way that i didnt get to post any.<br />
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plus....im changing my phone and the internet line as well.<br />
so there is some delay here and there. and even i rarely able to online nowadays due to the<br />
problems.<br />
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well....since i going to leave sibu soon.....i should write<br />
something about sibu and the memories that would never be erased from my heart<br />
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but.....to be continued since i need to arrange the stuffs and come out with<br />
the whole conclusive wonderful story.insyaAllah<br />
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may Allah bless our deeds.aminSomewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-48035377190844885612012-11-22T05:20:00.001-08:002012-11-22T05:20:25.774-08:00::Save Palestine and Syria::Assalamualaikum warahmatullah<br />
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nothing much to say here. as I am quite busy this few weeks.<br />
but it's not wrong to spare sometimes to share something about save palestine and syria.<br />
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Everyone knows they are suffering right now. Do something guys!<br />
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we know that we are still in Malaysia.<br />
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We have no idea when the time come for us to jihad fi sabilillah together with our brothers and sisters there.<br />
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but that doesn't mean that we can sit still , doing nothing.<br />
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1. Pray for them with all your hearts to Allah SWT. Amin<br />
2. Donate.<br />
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erasi dan pengurusan umum HALUAN</h3>
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Nama Akaun: <strong>HALUAN</strong><br />No Akaun: <strong>14-023-01-000881-3</strong><br />Bank: <strong>Bank Islam Malaysia Berhad</strong></div>
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Nama Akaun: <strong>HALUAN</strong><br />No Akaun: <strong>14-023-01-002571-8</strong><br />Bank: <strong>Bank Islam Malaysia Berhad</strong></div>
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Nama Akaun: <strong>Tabung Amanah Asnaf HALUAN</strong><br />No Akaun: <strong>12-038-01-007164-2</strong><br />Bank: <strong>Bank Islam Malaysia Berhad</strong></div>
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Bantuan dan sumbangan khusus untuk projek kesedaran dan bantuan mangsa kekejaman rejim haram Zionis di Palestin:<br />Nama Akaun: <strong>Tabung Palestin HALUAN</strong><br />No Akaun - <strong>BIMB</strong>: <strong>14-023-01-003429-2</strong><br />No Akaun - <strong>Maybank</strong>: <strong>5644 9020 8528</strong></div>
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3. Boycott<br />
4. Make an intention that 1 day, you will go there and do your jihad fisabilillah.<br />
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I couldn't be boasting about my future career if I am not the one who can help and treat them with my own bare hands.<br />
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wallhuallam.Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-3549070231834491952012-11-12T16:54:00.001-08:002012-11-12T16:54:19.577-08:00::Finding the best way to get closer to Him::Assalamualaikum warahmatullah...<br />
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Allahumma ssolli A'la saiyidina Muhammad wa a'la aali Muhammad.<br />
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Today, I think I can't stand any longer the pressure.<br />
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Yes. The pressure<br />
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Pressure of being an ignorance Muslim.<br />
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I can't stand it.<br />
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I always feel that I am not doing the right thing<br />
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always bounded by something<br />
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My relationship with Allah?<br />
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Trying hard to cling to Him eventhough I know it by myself I am slowly slowing down my pace.<br />
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Isn't that suppose not to happen?<br />
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But I don't know why. sadly said!<br />
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Astaghfiruullah ...<br />
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Do you ever feel like...<br />
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"am I doing a right thing?"<br />
"why can't I be khusyuk in my solat?"<br />
"why this tears doesn't come out ....?"<br />
"My heart getting 'cold!'"<br />
"O, I am hopeless muslim!"<br />
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I think I done so many sins regardless minor or major sins, but I must have done something wrong.<br />
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I have wronged Allah in many ways that I myself perhaps did not realised it.<br />
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Please forgive me, O Allah for my wrongdoings.<br />
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Please forgive me.<br />
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I'll try my best to be more alert in anything that I do. InsyaAllah....<br />
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Guys out there, no matter how much sins that we might have done to Allah, don't forget to hurry realise the things and hurry get yourself back to Him, remember Him, and trust Him. <br />
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Let's pray for the best of Ummah. amin.<br />
<br />Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-60878304182534861512012-11-03T00:31:00.000-07:002014-04-08T07:52:44.942-07:00::Writing from my heart::Assalamualaikum warahmatullah<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Hi everyone there.! May Allah bless your day and place us all in His Jannah. Amin</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Today. no. actually it has been a week since I started to feel something grow deep down inside my heart.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To you guys reading this, for your information , I have 4 nephews, 1 had just passed away few years ago, he was still a small baby at that time. and the rest 3 are all naughty!</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">In other people opinion, they might regard me as quite a loud-cute aunty..(nak jugak letak cute!). I not a type of auntie who pamper my nephews like kissing and hugging them all the time. because I am just not among the type. I am more to like </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">"eh eh...jangan main luarrrrrr......."</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">"habiskannnn nasikkk tuuuuuuu...."</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">"jangan gadoh gadoh..."(sambil tangan pegang hanger)</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">sometimes, I do admit the fact that I really want to sayang-sayang with them. soemtimes, I managed. sometimes quite so-so...and I am trying until now. to be more gentle to them. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">and this 1 week, I am currently doing my paediatric posting. and for sure, starting my everyday life looking those innocent faces. the different between them and my nephews is they are sick. 1 of my nephew actually having this kind of asthma. but it should be ok up to now. InsyaAllah</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">you know, I never entertain or play like crazy with kids other than my nephews and my little brother(when he was so small back then). </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">that was my world and story with kids. but now, Allah gives me these bulk of kids to be entertained. and they are all so pure and innocent...</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">AND YOU KNOW WHAT...</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I just realised how innocent and pure my nephews are. same go with these kids in the ward...How I miss my nephews...! </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">AND SURPRISINGLY...</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I started to grow fond on them. admiring them. smiling and laughing alone by watching their actions. so innocent, NO SINS at all, very pure, and the list goes on........ </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">and realising that how sincere I am writing about them now :) </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">and realising that Allah create us, as a women, by nature, will change according to the surroundings, become more mature, more motherly and become more stronger in facing this very difficult life. Alhamdulillah....Thank you Allah for all the gives. Thank you Allah!</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">These are the faces that make me smile everyday....</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">so I guess, I need to be more postive and more sincere since I have to face these sincere faces everyday... </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">InsyaAllah.....and also reflecting myself....as a servant of Allah....because I was like these kids also 21 years ago. </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, Times, serif; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Seperti mana hadis Rasulullah saw,ā anak itu ibarat seperti kain putih,ibu bapalah yang akan mencorakkannya menjadi nasrani, yahudi ataupun majusiā</span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #7a7a7a; font-family: Georgia, Times, serif; font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #7a7a7a; font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">May you guys become good servants of Allah! amin...</span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b>p/s : </b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b>to one of my friend in this blogger world, may you live a good life...towards the best life as a muslim.</b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b>life and tests from Allah is like a twin. As long as you live and breath, you will be tested by Allah. </b></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b>The tests might come from your friends, parents, family, finance, and importantly yourself. </b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b> If you are trying to run from the problems or tests, then you are good for nothing. </b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b> Try to adapt yourself to the situation, no matter how hard it is</b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b> InsyaAllah, you will be fine. </b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b>Plus,you have been good to me although we are just knowing each other in this so called fantasy world. </b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b>and I know you encountered many problems with the people around you. as I just know you by reading your blog,and the things that you wrote in your blog is just a small part of your problems, isn't ?</b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b>I can't simply ask you the rest of your problems that you might keep it within yourself, but try to console yourself. Allah know everything in your heart. You are nowhere to hide. </b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b>I do have my own problems too. and the things that I wrote in my blog is just 20 % of my life. I did not write all of them because I regard them as my very own private secrets to Allah. Allah knows how deadly I am consoling myself to face them all. That is life. . </b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b>anyway, I am still your Kak Sath (as you are the only one name me Kak Sath)</b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b>You know I am also trying my deadly best to become a good muslim. and I wish you the same too. </b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d85c6;"><b>be good to people, and let them be if they are treating us badly. Leave it to Allah. </b></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #6aa84f;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #6aa84f;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I guess, that's all from me. ya.. today's post quite sincere...</span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And lastly, don't forget to pray for our brothers and sisters in Syria, Palestine, Myanmar and others. amin.</span></span></span></div>
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Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-8046653401032423622012-10-25T05:54:00.002-07:002012-10-25T05:58:36.689-07:00::2012 Aidiladha::Assalamualaikum warahmatullah<br />
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Alhamdulillah..terima kasih Allah ..bagi lagi aku peluang hidup. Alhamdulillah.<br />
Salam dan selawat ke atas junjungan Rasulullah, ahlul bait, sahabat2 baginda<br />
muslimin muslimat mukminin mukminat seluruh dunia<br />
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"Allahuakbar Allahuakbar ...."<br />
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takbir raya bergema. walaupun bukan lah raya aidilfitri, cuma aidiladha tapi tidak kurang penting dalam hidup umat islam.<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 18px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;">Sesungguhnya Kami (Allah) telah memberi engkau (ya Muhammad) akan kebajikan yang banyak. Oleh itu dirikanlah solat kerana Tuhanmu ( pada Hari Raya Haji) dan sembelihlah (binatang) korbanmu (sebagai ibadah dan mensyukuri nikmat Tuhanmu).ā (Surah al-Kauthar : ayat 1-2)</span></span></span></span><br />
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walaupun takde baju raya untuk aidil adha (eh...ade ke org buat?)<br />
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tapi ibrah sempena hari mulia ni banyak yg kita ambik.<br />
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ingat tak kisah Nabi Ibrahim A.S? dan anaknya dan isterinya???<br />
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I know you know.......ahaaaaa (Oh My English!)<br />
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taaaaappiiiii<br />
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jom la kita ingat balik kisah tersebut. entah mana aku baca hari tu....<br />
kisah pasal Nabi Ibrahim...mungkin dari blog bro Hilal kalau tak silap.<br />
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terkenang aku betapa tabahnya seorang...bukan seorang...tapi satu keluarga Nabi Ibrahim...tengok kisah Siti Hajar carik air untuk anaknya Nabi Ismail? sungguh menakjubkan .<br />
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satu, tengok betapa tabahnya , sabarnya seorang yang bergelar kaum hawa taat kepada perintah Allah tanpa 'compromise' (maaf...tak ingat apa perkataan sesuai dalam bm...'mengeluh' ke?)<br />
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kedua, tengok kaum isteri sabar taat dengan suami dan sokong Nabi Ibrahim....kalau tengok drama melayu sekarang...fuhhh....suara isteri2...terkedu aku...itu baru drama..belum yang betul-betul....nauzubillah min zalik<br />
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dan banyak lagi yang kita dapat ambik iktibar ...dan teruskan jadi hamba Allah yang terbaik yang termampu kita lakukan....AYUH!!!!<br />
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tetiba semangat......<br />
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dan tengok mak aku masak...semnagat betul nak sambut aidiladha...jadi tersenyum sendiri dengan kesemangatan dia....<br />
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ape pun JOM JADI HAMBA ALLAH YANG CANTIK DI HADAPAN ALLAH...JOM!<br />
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p/s: maaf kali ni guna 'aku' ..rasa macam best pulak...... (jakun.....!maklumlah...sarawak guna kamek kitak...aku dengan kawan2 tak guna aku kau melainkan dengan budak laki...)<br />
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p/s:aku tengah cuba nak masukkan balik lagu yang aku minat kat blog. (wink* wink*)... tengok lah berhasil tak hasil yang aku cuba nih.....<br />
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P/s : doakan journey Dr. J...(entry yang aku dah hapuskan dari sini....)<br />
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p/s: nah..baca la entry terbaru Tok Guru Nik Aziz yang terbaru nih..... <a href="http://www.blogtokguru.com/perutusan-aidil-adha-1433h-pengorbanan-menuju-keredaan-allah-swt/">::SINI...SILA BACA!!::</a><br />
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Jangan lupa korang ...Doa untuk saudara2 kita yang kat Syria, Burma, Palestin, Mesir, dan semua muslim yang ada kat dunia nih... amin!<br />
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wallahuallam<br />
<br />Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-15897861023516369582012-10-01T05:46:00.003-07:002012-10-01T05:46:58.829-07:00::Jalan Masih Panjang::Assalamualaikum warahmatullah...to all.<br />
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and the story begins...<br />
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1. Hey, I am annoyed enough. Astaghfirullah<br />
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As I told you many times, I am currently doing O&G posting. tempat org beranak tu . Peace!<br />
and it is ?compulsory for each of us to conduct 1 or more labour/baby delivery.[SO YOU THINK WE ARE CAPABLE ENOUGH? STOP IT]<br />
At first, I was really excited to conduct.<br />
however, there were many obstacles came in my ways.<br />
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3 times conduct half-way je. [Don't you have gut to conduct it till the end,huh? what? err..huh?]<br />
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first time, when it was the time for delivery. and I was standing beside the patient, wearing apron, sterile gloves and even face mask! [what an embarrassing!]<br />
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suddenly, the baby was having shoulder dystocia. [see, kan takde rezeki nak conduct?]<br />
I put off my CLEAN APRON AND STERILE GLOVES inside the yellow bin. buang mcm tu je padahal tak kotor pun.<br />
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I was a bit dissapointed. I was waiting almost 4 hours just to get the baby out. grieving together with the patient whom was in pain. I was in pain too..:( .. what a fruitless ending that day!<br />
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second time, I was rejected by the respected nurses. they were very reluctant to allow me to handle the patient.first because I was just entering the room like I am the head of department, kot.. second, I did not taking care of the patient form A to Z... I was burning inside crazily. Astaghfirullah. Ok. Fine,next time I will conduct another patient form A to Z . and don't you ever dare to say anything like that...[burning burning burning! La Taghdab....]<br />
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[Told you, I am not capable enough. dont you know 'cuak face'?]<br />
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Third time, after so many times had been wasted,<br />
with this bare face, once again, entered the labour ward with the ultimate hope that I will conduct a patient that day. everything went smooth. Alhamdullilah.....<br />
and when the patient was ready to deliver, everyone was like rushing here and there. and they knew I wanted to conduct the delivery. and I was wearing my STERILE GLOVES and they waited for me like forever....ouch, why the gloves didn't went in smoothly, and by the time I managed to wear the STERILE GLOVES (sterile la sgt kan?)...the baby was out already ..sob sob sob..(baby, dont you have any guts to be delivered by this poor and pitiful kakak? ? ? oh baby.....why?)...at the end,, my incredible task was just wiping the baby's face..[I am capable for this task... anyway]. but still the baby face did not clean. what a freaking weak me! but at the end, the kind nurse at last allowed me to take out the placenta. I was so excited dalam sedih. keluarkan placenta pun, hadeh, very embarassing as well. well, I am just a learner.<br />
I was afraid that I would injured and hurt my patient. And Alhamdulillah... the placenta went out easily..... wink*<br />
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Fourth time<br />
This time , I was so motivated to conduct a real baby. not a placenta, not just wiping the face, not just standing there like a useless dummy....<br />
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I was taking care the patient from A to Z (again>/??)<br />
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and managed to accompanied until the delivery time...and when she was straining to push the baby out, suddenly, 2 nurses came in... sorry, dik... this patient is a teacher. let us conduct her....<br />
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what???? Oh NOOOOOOO....<br />
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again, I had wasted their CLEAN AND STERILE GLOVES AND APRON!<br />
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but the thing is I was crying my heart out.(you know why? because I was so angry and I could not say anything. If I just let it out the things inside my heart, I might hurt them or make them even mad. So Islam taught me the beauty of being a sabar person. I wanted to folloe Rasulullah's attitude (akhlak)...sabar sabar sabar...and at the end, could not stand the pressure, I just let my tears out,... that would put out the 'fire' inside my heart...<br />
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so that;s my complicated notorious boring story....<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"><strong style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #3366ff; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><em style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Tiadalah terjadi sesuatu bencana itu melainkan dengan kehendak Allah, dan siapa yang percaya kepada Allah nescaya dipimpin Allah hatinya" </span></em></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">(Surah At-Taghabun:11)</span></strong></span><br />
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2. another lesson that I should never take it lightly..<br />
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I was having dinner with my 3 friends at this kedai makan.<br />
when I was leisurely chatting with my friends(sambil bajet bawak buku untuk dibaca..bacalah sangat kan?)<br />
one waiter approach me and gave me a card. with somebody's name on it.<br />
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oh rupanya one guy that was eating in front of me waving his hand to me.<br />
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@@"<br />
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so you're expecting me to throw this card in front of your face ? (dalam imaginasi)<br />
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and I was making my no-no response.<br />
and he just went away like that... perhaps he understood my response.<br />
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when we were in car, talking about the 'problem'<br />
so I came out with this words...<br />
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"kan bagus kalau orang tu dah kahwin...confirm takde org brani buat cam tu... and the thing is, he might be giving away his cards to countless ladies. tak baik lelaki buat mcm tu.... it was rude and insulting . as if he didnt respect me...this is wrong....this not supposed to happen..." I was a bit angry..(kan, marah lagi....) because he didnt respect me....<br />
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and that what's made me think kahwin is the best solution. and if I am not getting married yet, (jauh lagi la nampaknya..), I told myself, "don't worry, Allah will protect you....O Allah, I trust in you...I am just a weak servant of You. ..jauhkanlah hambaMu dari apa kejahatan yang telah Engkau takdirkan..Engkau Yang Maha Mengetahui...Ampunkan dosa-dosaku....<br />
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I was thinking,, this is a test from Him...in wards, this is reality, they are many patients come in with unmarried status. and they are muslims. this is a lesson that we, as a girl/women/lady need to take into a serious matter....<br />
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Back to hostel, I threw away the card into the rubbish bin.<br />
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and my best friend offered me to listen to this song....<br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TOzyLjR13IA&feature=related"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">JALAN MASIH PANJANG BY EDCOUSTIC</span></span></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><br /></span></span><br />
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have a great time listening!<br />
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I wanted to put this as background song for my blog...tapi it would be much disturbing for some people,kan??? haaa...nevermind la....<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"><strong style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #3366ff; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><em style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Orang-orang yang beriman itu akan menjadi tenteram hati mereka. Ingatlah dengan mengingati Allah itu hati akan menjadi tenteram"</span></em></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> (Surah Ar-Rad:28)</span></strong></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">and don't forget to keep reminding yourself that to pray for Syrians, Palestinians, Burma and all muslim fellows all over the world... the bad people have all the weapons, but trust it, we have Allah and our strongest weapon is make a lot of du'as for them ..amin</span><br />
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Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-72830088869465795482012-09-27T06:16:00.001-07:002012-09-27T06:16:58.278-07:00Another ?endless life story of mineAssalamualaikum warahmatullah<br />
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hey there, I'm back again. you must be thinking. "this girl has nothing to do despite blogging blogging and blogging?"<br />
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I'm thinking the same way too, there.<br />
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For your information, my E-day is just around the corner. freaking me out. !<br />
I'm not reading anything yet ! nothing hanging here, in my brain. O&G posting actually is not extremely packed unlike medicine posting before. and not too late to inform that, Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah for giving me another blessing and I passed the medicine posting exam.<br />
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and I should be more concentrate for my 0&G posting, anyway.<br />
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anyway, I want to say..."O Allah, forgive all my sins and place me in Your Jannah (Paradise) . And so with my parents, my family, my friends, and my muslim fellows all over the world. amin"<br />
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sempat jugak :)Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-84381077030054869192012-09-26T03:23:00.002-07:002012-09-26T03:23:39.024-07:00Thinking of themAssalamualaikum warahmatullah<br />
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I just want to drop by to share this video. please watch it.<br />
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<a href="http://www.globalpost.com/dispatch/news/regions/middle-east/syria/120921/aleppo-syria-hospital-doctors-medical-supplies-assad-air-strikes">Inside Syria: one hospital's story</a><br />
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"they betrayed us..."<br />
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this touched my heart very much.<br />
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"they are rich, but they betrayed us"<br />
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O Allah, please save my muslim fellows in Syria, Palestine. amin.<br />
<br />Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-21266954859003060422012-09-21T21:14:00.000-07:002012-09-21T21:14:05.766-07:00::Chapter 15 : So it so true::<h2 align="center">
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> it is just another day right? </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">so, in Islam, the <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">true believers</span> always wanted and desired to be a better person for tomorrow. a way better than yesterday. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Be prayerful to Allah</span>, remembering Him in every aspect of our lives. and always believe that Prophet Muhammad Peace Be Upon Him was the last messenger of Allah. Prophet Isa (Jesus) is the messenger of Allah too, yet He prayed to Allah to become one of the follower of Prophet Muhammad in the Day of Jugdement. Open your eyes. It is all perfectly explained in the Al-Quran that Prophet Isa himself denied that he was a god. He claimed that he was His servant and messenger that was ordered to preach people to embrace the religion that believe in non other than Allah as the creator. </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Isn't too illogical and hard for the non-believers to understand and open their eyes (ain't the truth is to open your hearts?) . Simple! </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">This is some verse that I have quote from one of the Chapter/Surah in the Quran.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Surah Ali-Imran : 60 (Chapter 3 : Verse 60)</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;">Ų§ŁŁŲŁŁŁŁ Ł ŁŁ Ų±ŁŁŲØŁŁŁŁ ŁŁŁŲ§Ł ŲŖŁŁŁŁŁ Ł ŁŁŁ Ų§ŁŁŁ ŁŁ ŁŲŖŁŲ±ŁŁŁŁ ļ“¾</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;">((This is) the truth from your Lord, so be not of those who doubt.) ļ“æ3:60</span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;">ļ“¾ When Allah mentioned that He created him as a servant and a Prophet, He extolled Himself, the Most Holy, by saying,</span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;">ļ“æŁ ŁŲ§ ŁŁŲ§ŁŁ ŁŁŁŁŁŁ Ų£ŁŁ ŁŁŲŖŁŁŲ®ŁŲ°Ł Ł ŁŁ ŁŁŁŁŲÆŁ Ų³ŁŲØŁŲŁŁŁŁŁŁļ“¾</span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;">(It befits not (the majesty of) Allah that He should beget a son. Glorified be He.) Means glory be unto Him, He is far exalted above that which these ignorant, wrongdoing, transgressing people say about Him.</span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;">--> so obviously there is no God except Allah</span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;">-->Prophet Isa(Jesus) was not a god and not even His son. </span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;">ļ“æŲ„ŁŲ°ŁŲ§ ŁŁŲ¶ŁŁ Ų£ŁŁ ŁŲ±ŁŲ§ ŁŁŲ„ŁŁŁŁŁ ŁŲ§ ŁŁŁŁŁŁŁ ŁŁŁŁ ŁŁŁ ŁŁŁŁŁŁŁŁŁļ“¾</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;">(When He decrees a thing, He only says to it: "Be!'' -- and it is.) Whenever He wants something, He merely commands it and it happens as He wills. This is as Allah says,</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;">ļ“æŲ„ŁŁŁŁ Ł ŁŲ«ŁŁŁ Ų¹ŁŁŲ³ŁŁ Ų¹ŁŁŲÆŁ Ų§ŁŁŁŁŁŁ ŁŁŁ ŁŲ«ŁŁŁ Ų”ŁŲ§ŲÆŁŁ Ł Ų®ŁŁŁŁŁŁŁ Ł ŁŁ ŲŖŁŲ±ŁŲ§ŲØŁ Ų«ŁŁ ŁŁ ŁŁŲ§ŁŁ ŁŁŁŁ ŁŁŁ ŁŁŁŁŁŁŁŁŁ - Ų§ŁŁŲŁŁŁŁ Ł ŁŁ Ų±ŁŁŲØŁŁŁŁ ŁŁŁŲ§Ł ŲŖŁŁŁŁŁ Ł ŁŁŁ Ų§ŁŁŁ ŁŁ ŁŲŖŁŲ±ŁŁŁŁ ļ“¾</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;">Verily, the likeness of `Isa before Allah is the likeness of Adam. He created him from dust, then said to him: "Be'' -- and he was. (This is) the truth from your Lord, so be not of those who doubt.) ļ“æ3:59-60ļ“¾</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;">-->obvoiusly Prophet Isa was just a human. not a God. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Traditional Arabic'; font-size: 40px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><s>I am done with my part</s>. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">correction</span>. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f4cccc;">I am done with my tiny minute role in explaining to the non-believers that Prophet Isa was not a God. </span>or not one of the trinity. He is a prophet of Allah(the messenger of Allah). Allah had ordered him to preach people to embrace Islam. Knowing the existence of Allah. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I am just afraid that in the Day of Judgment, Allah will ask me "what have you done for Islam?"</span></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">can I just shaking my head shamelessly? proud that I'm doing nothing for Islam ? I am afraid of being throwing into The Hell and can't even get myself a way out of it. </span></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I want to enter The Paradise and not The Hell.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">O Allah, I am so afraid of my ignorance. Please forgive my sins... </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: large; line-height: 21px;">DOn't you afraid? </span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">So I think, I don't even helping <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">my fellow muslims in Palestine, Syria, Egypt</span></b></span> and other muslim countries . With that, I feel extremely sinful. Tears falling down by watching they are being killed, tortured and raped. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 52px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><s>those people</s></span></b></span> kill my muslim brothers and sisters heartlessly. ! and I'm sitting here peacefully? </span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I am sinful. I am not hating the non-believers. I am truly not. It just that, in my age, I guess there are so many manipulation of the facts in the 'Book" that you've read. who is empowering your 'Book' system? A human or a God? why it is always changing from time to time and from what I know, there is old and new testament? Does one 'book' is not perfect enough to lead and guide you? </span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I am not a good preacher of Islam. but I know and extremely certain that Al-Quran is the most perfect 'book' that I ever read. there is no old version or new version of Al-Quran. It is the same as what Prophet Muhammad had taught us. it's the same.</span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I am also just a beginner on this journey of reaching to Allah. Again, be prayerful to Allah.</span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> I am not as great as these scholars. They are debating with the non-believers about the truth of Islam. and they made a lot of success outcomes.</span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> I am not good when talking about Islam. but as a human being, I cannot denied that Islam is the only faith that taught me the meaning of being a grateful person, positive person, I feel extremely tranquil if I pray to Allah or even just remember Him while walking....</span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">All these while, people around the world are being deceived about how extremist and terrorist the believer of Islam. they bombed themselves, they destroyed the World Trade Centre and so on and so forth and it is endless.</span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Please, can't you see the world is getting cruel..(already cruel a long time ago!). Those cruel people conquered the world network systems and telling to the world that muslim believers are terrorist. Heck, those cruel people can't even catch a fly and boasting to the world how great they are by killing our muslims fellows around the world. </span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">and most importantly, I can see the 'light'</span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I know I am walking in the 'light'</span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I know paradise (syurga/jannah) is my ultimate goal.</span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">May Allah open your hearts to think about the truth of Islam. </span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Otherwise, I am not deserve to judge you. But Allah does. </span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 0px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 0px; line-height: 24px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">1.When the victory of Allah has come and the conquest</span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 0px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 0px; line-height: 24px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">2.And you see the people entering into the religion of Allah in multitudes</span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 0px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 0px; line-height: 24px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">3.Then exalt [Him] with praise of your Lord and ask forgiveness of Him. Indeed, He is ever Accepting of repentance.</span></span></span></span></span></div>
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Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-32932758225625994562012-09-06T08:16:00.001-07:002012-09-06T08:34:01.792-07:00::Dan aku berjalan lagi...::<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Assalamualaikum warahmatullah...</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Dan bila aku sedar, aku berjalan penuh semangat, langkah demi langkah kaki kuhentak</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">berjanji tidakkan berhenti walau apa yang terjadi</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">namun kusedar, kaki ini bisa lemah juga</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">ketawa dengan kelemahan sendiri</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">belum mencecah angka 3 tahun pula</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">manakan ku letak wajah di hadapan Allah</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">sekejap saja bisa lemah semula</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">nah, terbukti aku manusia</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Astaghfirullahaladzim</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">walau ku usahakan juga untuk berjalan</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">tangisan, jeritan semangat melaung laung</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">harapkan agar kaki kuat semula</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">namun ku sedar, jika aku teruskan jua, mungkin bisa cedera dan berhenti sebentar</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Nah, itu yang parah</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">kulihat hamba-hamba Nya yang lain memecut laju meninggalkan aku</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">layakkah aku untuk cemburu?</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">bodoh untuk cemburu</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">baik usaha sendiri sahaja bagaimana bisa memecut seperti mereka</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">aku tidak mampu untuk berhenti</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">tidak mampu untuk berehat</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">biar lah aku merangkak bagai si kura kura</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">biarlah aku mengengsot bagai sang siput</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">aku tidak mahu berhenti</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Mengejar dan mencari cinta dan redha Allah</span><br />
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<br />Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-12814069897343124182012-08-30T10:32:00.002-07:002012-08-30T10:32:32.147-07:00From That Dark Narrow TunnelAssalamualaikum warahmatullah...<br />
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I've no idea why am I so excited to share this story. perhaps to spread the happiness to everyone? or just to improve my english writing [Oh my English ! ]<br />
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Today, I went into the labour room [tempat orang bersalin tu..] ...<br />
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... to observe the struggling mother delivering her baby...<br />
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I was standing at one of the corner of the small labour room, it was 9pm when I started to stand there, (not much like a dummy ), watching the lady, at that time,.<br />
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When she was broke down in tears for the honest-to-goodness pain of the labour, I knew I had to hold back my voice, and most most most importantly my stomach content!<br />
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"now now.." whispering to myself.<br />
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the mother was extremely in pain. with the flushed face indicating how hard she was straining just to get the baby out to see the world. this temporary world subhanallah... Allah Is The Greatest.<br />
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and so I started to say..'now baby... you are in the starting line , charting your own life in the long journey and to Allah you shall return at the end of the day... be a muslim ok?' sadly said because the innocent baby came out to the world by a non-muslim mother. and May Allah gives the light to both of them . amin<br />
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and for me...today..now, the clock is crawling to 1.14 am. and I am enjoying this time , as I am proudly to say that today is my dearest mother's birthday!!!! hooray...so you know my intention of staying up at this hour..just to write something to wish her birthday... and around 12 something just now, I was calling her... to wish. the voice was different.<br />
I thought she was holding back the tears. and guess what, I just realised that was just a sound of voice of somebody yawning. yeah. she was yawning. what a sad, hehehehe...<br />
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anyway, that is my mother. the one that always made me crying in silent...the one that made me laugh when I am alone just thinking of her funny actions and jokes, the one that taught me the meaning of the true patience and love without need to voice it out, cannot help myself for not missing and loving her....<br />
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I always have a dream. if I were destined by Allah to get married and become a mother, I will perfectly immitate her. I will become my mother junior of raising my children. hardly showing her tears infront of her children, always wake up early in the morning, washing our used & dirt clothes, willingly cook for the breakfast, and the lists go on on on and on....<br />
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I love my mom...(ouch...all of sudden the heart is feeling like popping out....how much I love and miss her...)<br />
and I know Allah Is The Greatest of giving me this ni'mat... of having her as my mom in this temporary world. I always pray that Allah will place her in His Jannah... forgive all her sins... put away anything that discomfort her heart.... amin......<br />
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so went into the labour room made me realised that how much she had suffered just to get me out of that dark narrow tunnel.<br />
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Thank you, mak....I love love love you....Thank you Allah for everything that I have....Alhamdulillah :)<br />
<br />Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-34969927235259052022012-08-16T02:46:00.003-07:002012-08-16T03:45:32.494-07:00:::Pelangi Hati (The Rainbow Heart):::Assalamualaikum warahmatullah<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Alhamdulillah dan Alhamdulillah....exam habis dah.! yeay.. (bajet menjerit mcm dlm drama2 tu!)</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">ntah la . banyak benda nak kena skrew balik. otak banyak terlepas skrew 2 bulan ni. Iman rasanya pudar dan pudar dan pudar dannnnnn....(tengah renovate dan decorate balik ni..bagi bling bling siket....[gimme five, girls!]. sementara iman berpudar, saya berusaha di tengah kesibukan bergelumang dengan kerja dunia, mengecat semula supaya ia terang terang dan terang... jangan pudar ya iman, nanti hati nampak huduh (hodoh). </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Alright, doa banyak2 untuk usaha ini agar istiqamah dan mekar fresh. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">1. Truly creepy.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Alhamdulillah. ujian teori tu, well...so-so...tawakkal ok?</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">yang saya nak crita ni ujian klinikal. It was pretty creepy! saya dapat 3 patients. 1 untuk long case[kena present dengan 2 pensyarah dalam bilik. ] . Allhamdulillah. dapat doktor pakar yang wajahnya berseri seri dek panahan keimanan gitu. satu lagi pensyarah bukan islam tapi semestinya sangat lah baik. </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">anyway, saya punya case senang [kot]. akibat itulah saya banyak terlepas pandang banyak points. setengah jam di bilik itu, woah. rasa mcm kebas satu badan. [nervous lah tu..]... jawapan banyak merapu satu hal, Alhamdulillah...tu lah... dpat doktor muslim tu jadi examiner , hopefully Allah lembutkan hatinya untuk luluskan saya. InsyaAllah.... last2 tu, dia berborak pulak. [at least tak tanya lagi apa2 pasal patient!] ..</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">"orang mane? duduk mane? raya kat mane? [dalam bahasa sarawak as he is sarawakian:)]</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">"raya datanglah rumah. nanti message lah.." [I was like..... @@""]... TERHARU! walaupun saya banyak ckp jawapan merapu, dia sempat lagi ckp mcm tu. terima kasih, Dr. A! Semoga Allah merahmati kitak sekeluarga! amin</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">2. Yusuf, I am truly sad!</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">ada sorang patient. nama nya yusuf. dia diagnose dengan penyakit yang kronik. umur baru 25. </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">masa kat Male Ward, saya pernah berborak dengan dia. dan saya tahu dia seorang hamba Allah yang baru menyedari betapa sayangnya Allah pada nya. berderai air matanya apabila saya merapati di sisi katil dan berbicara tentang Allah. saya lihat matanya. penuh penyesalan. perkara terakhir yang dia bagitahu saya..."Mana arah kiblat?" (sedihnya ingat balik. T_T") . saya seronok malam tu sebab dia bersemangat nak solat. Ya. saya seronok. dan lepas peristiwa tu, saya dijadualkan berada di Female Ward. dan seminggu lepas tu, kawan saya cakap, Yusuf dah meninggal . I was like...TERKEDU. saya tak sempat jenguk dia lagi....tak sempat tanya, "macam mane hari tu? apa khabar hari ni?" </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Subhanallah...Yusuf pergi selama-lamanya menghadap Yang Esa dalam bulan penuh barokah, Ramadhan...untungnya...diri sendiri ni tak tahu mcam mane lagi ;;; :(</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">[Ya Allah, Engkau jadikanlah aku hambaMu yang sentiasa ingat dan tunduk dengan perintah Mu. memohon ampun dan taubat hanya kepadaMu...Ya waa si' al maghfirrah....amin]</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">3. Truly alone :(</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">where's everyone in this blogging world? </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">mane ni mane yang tu? sometimes, I need you guys for your opinions, and restoring back my spirit. ouh. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">4.Truly hoping.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Mendoakan agar mereka yang di syria, palestin, muslim myanmar,mesir, malaysia,indonesia dan seluruh umat islam agar ditetapkan hati dan iman. diampunkan dosa2 dan dorahmati syurga. dikuatkan semangat jihad fisabilillah. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Ya Allah,</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> jadikanlah kesedihan mereka, kesedihanku jua,</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">keperitan mereka keperitanku jua,</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">kesakitan mereka kesakitanku jua....</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">kerana mereka saudaraku.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">aku tidak punya senjata hebat untuk menembak tentera Basyar Al Assad, namun ku punya senjata doa untuk membenam mereka. </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Moga Allah istiqamahkan hati untuk mendoakan kemenangan & kekuatan saudara2ku. Amin</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">nota kaki: Ramadhan bakal pergi bukan? in less than 3 days time. saya seperti terkena kejutan elektrik. "</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">"sekejap nya? hah? huh? heh? whattttt?for real?could you repeat it??? oh? tidak!!!!!!"</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">dan the list of objecting words go on like a waterfall....</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">mungkin kerana saya banyak menghabiskan masa untuk urusan dunia barangkali ya? Allah, sedihnya....</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">apalagi...pulun qiam... ! qiam qiam qiam...saya takut selepas ramadhan, diri masih lagi di takuk yg sama....taknak...saya nak panjat takuk atas... taknak jatuh! </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">ini rasa hati saya.... sedih, pilu....</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">YA, saya hipokrit kerana pura pura gembira jika sahabat2 pasang lagu raya,</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">YA, saya marah jika lagu raya dipasang di shopping complex padahal ramadhan tak mula pun lagi!</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">YA, saya rasa bodoh jika saya tidak bangun qiam!</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Syawal, datangmu tidak ku undang bukan kerana membenci. Raya tanda kemenangan umat islam. syukur alhamdulillah tetapi, Ramadhan terlalu pantas buatku. :(</span><br />
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Assalamualaikum and salam ramadhaan to all.<br />
Alhamdulillah. after ? a year ?, Allah still giving me the chance to taste the wonderful rahmah to once again enter the month of barakah, Ramadhan. In fact, it's feel like the last ramadhan ended just not so long ago. very quick like just in a blink of an eyes<br />
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Ramadhan is so "tasteful" . its "delicious"..its "refreshing"..Its "yummy" . it's night is decorated by countless wonderful stars and a loyal moon. it's day is filled with the breeze with the sufficient sunlight that make the clouds look so great from down here.<br />
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Indeed, without syaitan, we tend to avoid doing something that is not permissible. it's just how you get yourself back. your nafsu. In Ramadhan, crazy nafsu would push you back doing things that aren't just beneficial for yourself and what more for Islam. an advice to the me, restrict your nafsu from saying/doing anything to your imaan. in everthing that you do or you would like to do, put imaan at the first place and Allah would redha to you. Isn't Ramadhan is wonderful for us? Alhamdulillah<br />
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As for me, in hospital, they are so much things that I need to do in which I should draw my own line of restriction there. this is reality, everyone. Once you're in hospital, regardless you are doctors, medical students, nurses bla bla bla.. as long as you're in this line, there is no way to escape from touching your hand onto somebody's body. But of course Islam does allow certain exceptions. this work involving people's lives. and for me, my intention is to learn. LEARN AND GET KNOWLEDGE OF TREATING PEOPLE FOR THE SAKE OF ALLAH. NO ONE EXCEPT ALLAH. <br />
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To recall back, when I was pacing my footsteps into Sibu Hospital a month ago, I was kinda excited. both pupils were dilated. the big smile and grinn never faded away from this face. the white coat always in good shape with all the buttons were on. always wanted to look professional huh?<br />
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but that was just awhile. from that time, I never knew that I would encountered so much problems filling up my life. I've become so much distracted in my prayers, I've started to give in a bit of my principle, I've started being dragged away by the atmosphere.<br />
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Then, I've realised that, O Allah, am I happy enough?<br />
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Do I have to touch countless young man in the hospital ? I am so freak that Allah is not redha with my stuffs. and Why am I started to think of something else when I've started to raise my hand upon said Allahuakbar in my prayers? why am I become so foolish and ignore the presence of Allah in everything that I do? Astaghfirullah.<br />
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In hospital, truly speaking, it is bloody hard to lower your gaze. the eyes always responding to someone that is not halal for me to look into. Why am I giving in damn easy? WHY?<br />
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I want to graduate. pray for me in these few years,amin.<br />
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True. to my future husband (if not in dunya, may Allah meets us in His Jannah), your future wife begging for your forgiveness because, I touch loads of male patients, I laugh crazily with my collegues whenever we face patients or discussing loads of funny/weird cases, I am not someone that you're expecting to be khusyuk in my prayers all the time, I am not someone that would always prepare for all your needs, I am someone that might always coming home late midnight or not even sleep in our house, I am not someone that you're expecting to date with you during weekend because everyday I have to go to hospital for the ward round, <br />
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I know that I might be the wife that would hurt you always. Future husband, Allah has chosen me to a part of this line, I redha with this destiny. I can't turn back. I can't turn back. not even my head. I can't. <br />
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I asked Allah 6 years ago in my du'a, "if this career is the best for me, bring me there. amin" <br />
and Allah brought me here. I can't even lift up my footsteps backwards. <br />
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I'am half way there. half way to my dream. Half way to my ultimate dream. <br />
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Back to the main story, I deeply reflect myself and always ask myself "are you ok? need anything to cure your heart? need extra books to console your uneasy feeling? need new sejadah or telekung to make your solat perfect? what else shoud you do to return back your heart to Allah? what else? what's the problems? "<br />
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ok. so, I lost tract. [don't who to write unarranged stuffs in my head. ]<br />
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so, let me put an end here. and my last words, never forget to make doa for our beloved brothers and sisters in Syria, Palestine,Egypt,Myanmar, and our country as well. and pray for ummah as long as your breath still coming in and out. or you want to try ventilator? </div>
they were syahid. they are the people of Jannah. Subhanallah. <br />
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WallahuallamSomewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-65308197768569046232012-06-30T04:11:00.002-07:002012-06-30T06:07:06.436-07:00Many stories to share #part 4<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barokatuh..</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">it has been 2 weeks I'm in Sibu. and there are many things to ponder upon here.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">1. It's bloody tiring.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">when I started my day 1 here, of course the class was in the hospital. and day 1, people normally would give talk, seminar and of course things like that with these facies. new facies. talk talk talk...taught us how to proper wash/clean our 'clean' hands using sanitizer. interesting. I was so excited following every single steps that were demonstrated to us. after that, talk talk talk went on .........till the moment I'd realized that I was sleeping. well, it was a conducive room to make people feel sleepy anyhow. and not because I was not getting enough sleep the night before ya.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">and the talks went just like that from 8-11.30 something.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And week 1 just went on like that. go to hospital early morning, greet patients, ? greet doctors to ask permission to observe procedures that they were ordered to do. sometimes, chased them all over the cubicals to get just a small signature and sometimes became dummy-like creature standing there for 20 minutes looking at them writing something and freak enough to interrupt just to get the signature.. ...[doctors and medical students in the point view of patients seemed to be very busy, walk here and there....in fact, they're actually 'main tarik tali' ]...O people, come on... be cool of dropping your signature. weren't you once a medical student before?</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">and around 5 pm back to hostel with all very pale face because very tired. and the schedule is repeating for the next 9 weeks.....</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Now, it has been 2 weeks, and I'm developing symptoms of ?anaemia</span>. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #6aa84f;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">O Allah, give me strength</span></b></span>....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">whatever it is, subhanallah walhamdulillah...</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">2. they are also human not just patients</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I guess, this problem happen to all medical students. approach patient and say we want to ask some questions[which is not that SOME but MANY MANY questions actually, kan???]...</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">ask ask ask, do physical examination...ask ask ask again......to complete our history taking in a very short time. but you should realized how much you're adding the suffer and burden them.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">They're not healthy people. you just couldn't expect they would entertain you happily and hospitably.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">so don't force them . ask them few questions and go back home. tomorrow approach back and get back the things that you missed regarding the history taking....this is a full advice to myself especially. fatigue me vs fatigue patient..subhanallah walhamdulillah</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">3. less is more actually</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">what I like about the hostel that I'm staying right now is, the restaurant is sharing the same building with our hostel building. and I eat there almost everyday. and the kakak-kakak there also of very nice workers, and the restaurant also got television and sometimes I spent some of my time to watch masterchef malaysia. however, the food is rather too oily and hmm....I guess, this could worsen my anaemia. no fresh vegies, if got vegies, the cooking style is very hmmm.....too much oil...eventhough I do eat KFC, but it happen once a while. eating at the restaurant is not a big issue but the problem is I eat very unhealthy food everyday. I've no more option. balik pukul 12pm. straight away go there....O Allah, please give them ilham to consider us and my condition....amin....</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">4. I miss my family</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">again,it's normal kan? T_T</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">5. My roommate</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">hehe...I've got Su as my roommate.... Alhamdulillah...</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">being her roommate always making me to feel like kakak kakak-feeling....</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I always have different rommates since I was in Labuan matriculation. and there were 5 roommates that I've ever living with including Su. I will treat her my best like kakak-kakak....she is like little sister...let's live together well,k?</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">6. Untold story of arwah Dr. Rafidah Muhamad. innalillahi wa inna ilaihi roji'un....</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">she was a sister to my sister's friend. she also was my senior in medical school. I saw her once and heard her stories told by her mom whenever I went back home and eat at her mom's restaurant. her mom always told me about her latest news. like she was working in Lundu Hospital, promoted as MO.....as far as I remembered, my chinese teacher always praised her because she was well-known as a smart student when she was schooling and also my sister also told me that she was a 4-flat student when she was studied in Labuan Matriculation. May Allah bless her and place her together with the people that He awarded with maghfirah and rahmah...May Allah place her in Jannah and make ease her way to Him... remember, we also shall return to Allah one day...reflect and refresh back ourselves. kullun nafsi dza ikkatul maut[setiap yang bernyawa pasti merasai mati....]</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">7. Pray for ummah</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Alhamdulillah, the muslim world was has made another big hit when our brother in Islam, Dr Mohamed Morsi was elected as new president of Egypt/Mesir. Alhamdulillah.....</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">and also, pray for Syria, Palestin, Myanmar muslim brothers and sisters, Philippines muslim brothers and sisters and pray for the ummah as well.....if we can't afford to go there and perform jihad to fight for Islam from those kuffar, please make du'a....banyak banyak.... I m so afraid in the akhirat, Allah will ask me why I never help them even with du'a...so make du'a for them....isn't that also a weapon?</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I'd once told my mother,</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">"mak, I'll one day work at palestin..."</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">"If you work there, then my blood will rise up to 200..."</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">"...."</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">hmmm....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">mom, I love you very much and nothing would trade my love for you in this dunya</span></span>...but I love my brothers and sisters there too...even now,I'm very worry about them....mom, of course I won't go if you're not redha with me as I know Allah will not redha with me if I go against you.....just to let you know that I've got variety kind of loves to share to muslim brothers and sisters....I love you,both mak and bapak.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Last words of the day,</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #e69138;">"</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 17px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #e69138;">Apapun alasan yang ada, saya memang suka menulis dan saya akan tetap memenuhi keinginan saya untuk tetap menulis. Jika apa yang saya tulis adalah sesuatu yang benar, Alhamdulillah. Namun jika tidak, maka Astaghfirullah. Tetapi, saya yakin bahawa kalaupun tulisan ini tidak bermanfaat, insya Allah tetap tidak mendatangkan mudharat. Namun, kebaikanlah yang saya inginkan, dan Allah sajalah yang dapat memberi taufiq,ā</span></span></span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 17px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #e69138;"><br /></span></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 17px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #e69138;">(As Syahid Imam Hassan Al Banna)</span></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">wallahuallam...</span><br />
<br />Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-82160768436919292632012-06-17T09:20:00.000-07:002012-06-17T09:20:03.072-07:00::Bismillah::Assalamualaikum warahmatullah.<br />
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2-3 hari ni adalah hari yg memenatkan [cukup2] bg saya. pindah ke sibu for a year. if you're not promoted to 4th year, you should repeat 3rd year as stated. itu fakta bukan auta..memulakan hidup di sibu,...................<br />
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pelik. bandar yg pelik.. perasaan pelik sama macam pertama kali saya melangkah ke labuan.<br />
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melilau jugak mata melihat bandar sibu ni...<br />
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well, sebenarnya bukan itu yg saya nak crita...<br />
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esok, 18 jun 2012, kelas pertama saya utk tahun ketiga<br />
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saya dapat medicine posting dulu out of 4 postings.<br />
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hmm.. tak brani nak kata apa2.<br />
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otak kosong semcm je.<br />
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well, kosong2 pun, kena isi jugak kan. apa lagi..isi ah.....<br />
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pray that everything will be going smoothly as for me and the entire batch.<br />
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Ya Allah, permudahkanlah jalanku, juga sahabat2 ku..<br />
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dan jgn lupa doa utk saudara2 kita yg tertindas di syria,palestin, mesir,myanmar, filipina dan mana2 yg sewaktu dgnnya. malaysia pun tertindas dalam diam what....hhehehehehe....sensitip ...<br />
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ok. dah lewat. preparing myself for tomorrow class. bismillahi tawwakaltu alallah...<br />
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<br />Somewhere Along The Highwayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05915238650399704879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7406024009450490493.post-36970881039542339142012-02-04T05:09:00.000-08:002012-02-04T05:16:56.133-08:0012 Rabiulawal detik istimewa....<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgC1mQzB0Qgq2hMrrDMILPJgX9mQM2tgBcuodf7RsEpCIm10_33YcLBw68ce4GYPVg3YyPGDZXK4nLOuakzJR4LC6qu13tAXHcrSQNHWk_dLZ7ZLTCH4SPlC6Ls3aOkbYgGpH_w2gW0fuXl/s1600/muhammad+saw.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 284px; height: 177px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgC1mQzB0Qgq2hMrrDMILPJgX9mQM2tgBcuodf7RsEpCIm10_33YcLBw68ce4GYPVg3YyPGDZXK4nLOuakzJR4LC6qu13tAXHcrSQNHWk_dLZ7ZLTCH4SPlC6Ls3aOkbYgGpH_w2gW0fuXl/s320/muhammad+saw.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5705268743448260594" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUst_hcRYYvhWap2X5yRrDfIbjiryIW0Wr8DV8REciiQce5xeGhZXG6m563jGSqu-_510cLnxe7I6kSyekM8wGTrpR4U8oci6PMT-Zzm2r7AfLuQnIIWm5fyg51GPlqZCITigsitQpeR8g/s1600/maulidur+rasul.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:verdana, arial;font-size:small;">Taāala al badru āalayna<br />min thaniyyatil-Wada<br />wajaba al-shukru āalayna<br />ma daāa lillahi daā</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:verdana, arial;font-size:small;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:verdana, arial;font-size:small;">Oā the White Moon rose over us<br />from the valley of Wadaā<br />and we owe it to show gratefulness<br />where the call is to Allah.<br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:verdana, arial;font-size:small;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:verdana, arial;font-size:small;">Rasul Allah, habib Allah<br />nabi Allah, shafiā Allah<br />rasul Allah, habib Allah<br />nabi Allah, shafiā Allah<br /><br />Salla allahu ala Muhammad<br />Salla allahu alayhi wasallam<br />Salla allahu ala Muhammad<br />Salla allahu alayhi wasallam</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:verdana, arial;font-size:small;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:verdana, arial;font-size:small;">Ayyuha al-mabāuthu fina<br />jiāta bi-al-amri al-mutaā<br />Jiāta sharrafta al-Madinah<br />marhaban ya khayra daā</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:verdana, arial;font-size:small;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">O you who were raised amongst us<br />coming with a work to be obeyed<br />You have brought to this city nobleness<br />Welcome, best caller to Godās way</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Rasul Allah, habib Allah<br />nabi Allah, shafiā Allah<br />rasul Allah, habib Allah<br />nabi Allah, shafiā Allah<br /><br />Salla allahu ala Muhammad<br />Salla allahu alayhi wasallam<br />Salla allahu ala Muhammad<br />Salla allahu alayhi wasallam</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; 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